Somewhere I hear a toilet flushing.
I just scheduled a few doctor appointments before I will become one of many in our country without health insurance. As of my birthday next month I will be dropped from my father's insurance and left to fend for myself if I should become chronically ill or fall down several flights of stairs and break my legs. Nothing particularly unfortunate in the ways of health or injury have affected me thus far in my life, but now that I will be uninsured, I'll be holding my breath. I'm officially a grownup.
I don't feel like a grownup. But I am. It makes me sad. Here I am almost finished with five years of college and I still have no idea what I want to do after graduation. There are some options, but how do I know which is the right one to choose? How do I know which one is right for me? How will I live with the choices I have made? Most of all, will I be happy?
These are some of the options I have been pondering.
1. Go to Japan and teach english for a year.
2. Join the SCA (Student Conservation Corp) and continue to defer my loan payments for awhile. SCA could take me to some exciting and beautiful places while preseving our country's National Parks.
3. I don't know.
Okay, so it's obvious that I haven't thought too hard or too much on the subject. I just don't want to yet. I'm not a good planner. I've thought about the option of grad school, but I don't think I want to go just yet. I need some life experience.
School is in full swing right now. I am taking a whopping nine credits. I was originally going to take twelve, but financial aid is ridiculous. Hopefully my plan to cheat the system works. I'm supposed to recieve aid for full time status, but I'm trying to pull a fast one and drop a class so I become part time status. The money I was "awarded" for full time was still quite a bit less than what my actual tuition is. I would still end up owing the school more than $600. Considering that I am paying for my education by myself with no help from my parents, I feel that the government's observation about what they assume my parents will contribute is asinine. So screw you, financial aid.
In other news, my caffiene intake is up, my moral for the opposite sex is down, and my return to dancing is about the only good thing that I have going right now. Yes, I am in a ballet class. It counts for three of my nine credits. No, I'm not a slacker. This class is actually the only class I look forward to every Tuesday and Thursday.
If it were possible for me, I think I would become asexual. But it's not, it's just not. I've been feeling a bit jaded in male-female relationships as of late. It makes me want to absolve from them all together, except for that not being asexual part. It seems as thought I just get caught up in these things and overanalyze situations too much, therefore becoming agitated about the entire thing and extremely discontented with the entire male race.
This being "grown-up" thing is quite tricky.
I don't feel like a grownup. But I am. It makes me sad. Here I am almost finished with five years of college and I still have no idea what I want to do after graduation. There are some options, but how do I know which is the right one to choose? How do I know which one is right for me? How will I live with the choices I have made? Most of all, will I be happy?
These are some of the options I have been pondering.
1. Go to Japan and teach english for a year.
2. Join the SCA (Student Conservation Corp) and continue to defer my loan payments for awhile. SCA could take me to some exciting and beautiful places while preseving our country's National Parks.
3. I don't know.
Okay, so it's obvious that I haven't thought too hard or too much on the subject. I just don't want to yet. I'm not a good planner. I've thought about the option of grad school, but I don't think I want to go just yet. I need some life experience.
School is in full swing right now. I am taking a whopping nine credits. I was originally going to take twelve, but financial aid is ridiculous. Hopefully my plan to cheat the system works. I'm supposed to recieve aid for full time status, but I'm trying to pull a fast one and drop a class so I become part time status. The money I was "awarded" for full time was still quite a bit less than what my actual tuition is. I would still end up owing the school more than $600. Considering that I am paying for my education by myself with no help from my parents, I feel that the government's observation about what they assume my parents will contribute is asinine. So screw you, financial aid.
In other news, my caffiene intake is up, my moral for the opposite sex is down, and my return to dancing is about the only good thing that I have going right now. Yes, I am in a ballet class. It counts for three of my nine credits. No, I'm not a slacker. This class is actually the only class I look forward to every Tuesday and Thursday.
If it were possible for me, I think I would become asexual. But it's not, it's just not. I've been feeling a bit jaded in male-female relationships as of late. It makes me want to absolve from them all together, except for that not being asexual part. It seems as thought I just get caught up in these things and overanalyze situations too much, therefore becoming agitated about the entire thing and extremely discontented with the entire male race.
This being "grown-up" thing is quite tricky.
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